A Little Confused...

Well I really can't tell if my doctor's appointment was good or bad today. In fact, I was so confused when I walked out and went to my car that I went back into the doctor's office to ask them to explain a little more. Don't get me wrong, I love my doctor (which sucks because he's moving to Texas after next week!), but I just left feeling confused and needed a little bit of explanation (which he gladly gave).

My ultrasound lasted for a long time, probably about 15 or 20 minutes (and was quite uncomfortable, let me tell you!). The doctor had a hard time differentiating between what was actually "baby" and what was part of the gestational sac. It truthfully looks like a little blob right now -- which doesn't bother me, because I know that it is a baby, not just a "blob". There was a faint heartbeat that could be barely seen, but measured (after tediously trying to find it) at less than 100 beats -- no exact number was known.

The doctor said that he was, at this point, "cautiously optimistic". He talked about back when I had my first HCG test, and my HCG number was 22, it looked pretty "dicey" but looked much better in the next few days when it was rising like it was supposed to. ((see previous blogs if you are confused here)) He said this could also be a case like that, where we would just need to watch for change at my next ultrasound (which is on Monday) and go from there.

The bottom line is that I'm obviously pregnant -- my boobs hurt, I'm super duper tired ALL of the time, I like foods that I don't normally like (chili and mint patties), I can't sit down for long without feeling blahhh, and I'm not feeling 100%. I can see at least SOMETHING in the gestational sac and that SOMETHING has a heartbeat....be it a not very strong heartbeat, at least not yet.

Now it's just a waiting game until Monday... I'm just praying that they can easily find a strong heartbeat and that they can measure baby and that baby is growing like (s)he is supposed to. I don't know if I can make it through a third miscarriage... Ugh.... I hhhhhate the waiting game!!!

Well...

I guess nobody reads my blog... lol. I still haven't told all of my family members that I am pregnant, and apparently none of them read my blog or else they'd be calling to congradulate me...ha! Oh well.

I'm 6 weeks today!!! Only 3 more lonnnnng days until my first ultrasound. I'm so nervous about it....so so nervous. But I realize I have no conrol over my baby (to an extent) and just need to let it go into God's hands. It's so tough though!

Doing Better... I think?

A few days ago when I got home from work I had cottage cheese, pineapples, pickles, olives, pickled okra, a pepper, and chocolate. Yum!

From my calculations right now, I should be 5 weeks and 5 days pregnant today. I'm feeling better today, mainly because I'm feeling worse (like that made any sense.) But I know I'm still not over the hump, if I ever will be! I know also that even if I have morning sickness symptoms, it doesn't mean the pregnancy is healthy (yes, I know that from experience.) I am certainly having pregnancy symptoms -- sore boobs, major heartburn, tiredness, sluggishness, sick to my stomach a lot-- to say the least. And to think, actual "morning sickness" hasn't even started! But I'll just keep on praying and keep on being careful with what I do and eat, and just have to wait and see.

Worried, probably for no reason

I have been a little worried today, but worrying does no good. It doesn't fix anything, it doesn't solve any problems, it just makes me sick to my stomach and feel crappy. I don't even know why I've been so worried! I have no bad signs that there is something wrong with baby. My boobs are still sore every once in a while, I still feel icky if I sit in the wrong position for too long, my lower back still aches a little bit when I sit down for too long. I've read that the "real" morning sickness doesn't really start until 6 weeks, which I will be on Sunday, but for whatever reason my crazy mind thinks I should be sick NOW. So.... I dunno. I'll just have to leave it in God's hands because it is totally out of my control. My ultrasound is not until April 30th, so I'll just have to wait until then.

It's gonna be a long 9 months!

Well, I have absolutely no idea who reads this, so hopefully I'm not sticking you with too big of a shocker!

I found out on the 10th that I am pregnant!!! I am so super excited. I didn't tell many people, even family, because I wanted to get some tests run first to see if it was good or not. I didn't really want to tell my work yet, because I know its an inconveniece for me to be on Light Duty, but I caved and got my doctor's
note and told them. I'd rather just play it safe at this point.

These are what they my HCG levels were:
* April 10th, 11 DPO, HCG = 22

* April 14th, 15 DPO, HCG = 98

* April 16th, 17 DPO, HCG = 236

(DPO = Days Past Ovulation)

If you don't know anything about HCG levels, those are good numbers! HCG is the basic pregnancy hormone , and right now should be doubling every 48 hrs or so. So those 3 tests looked good and the doctor wants to see me on April 30th for my first ultrasound, which I am very nervous about! He has put me on Progesterone, which is basically the hormone that helps sustain the pregnancy. I don't think I've had any bad side effects from it, but it's hard to differentiate them from my regular pregnancy symptoms.

So as of today I'm about 5 weeks and 1 day pregnant. (yes, I found out VERY EARLY that I wad pregnant) Haven't had SUPER bad morning sickness yet, but I've read that it should start around 6 weeks -- yay! Haha. I have, however, had the super tiredness that comes wih pregnancy. It's like no tiredness you've ever felt, because it pretty much never goes away! But that should get better in my second trimester (Lord willing I make it that far). Right now, I wake up feeling sick (and that may be from the progesterone, I dunno) and I go to bed feeling a little sick. If I sit down for too long, I get crampy, but walking around fixes that quickly. If I stand up for too long, I feel dizzy, so sitting down helps. LOL! The joys of pregnancy. :)