I just saw my ticker box and realized that it has been 1 month ago today. 1 month since I started bleeding and knew that that pregnancy was over. I can't believe it has been that long. In some ways, it seems like just yesterday. Funny that I finally feel like I'm getting back to "normal" (whatever that is). But this is part of the reason why a miscarriage is so dreaded... you see it coming and you know your life will never be the same again, and you also know that for at least a month after that you will be miserable and feel crappy and just not be "you". Funny also that I've been telling myself for an entire month now that I'm not thinking about it and I don't want to think about the road up ahead. I'm too scared and it stresses me out severely. I don't really know what to do at this point. I know I can't go on like this forever... I have to think about what is next. But I also don't know how many miscarriages and D&Cs a uterus can take before it just completely gives out. *sigh*
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